just about so many things that i find out i don't really need to & i get to know them searching for things that i really need .
though i never find them.searching has always been a hobby,not much i remember ,still,as far as i can go back i searched for leftover pencils under the desks after my school bell rang.i really made a huge collection out of them,by far i had the richest pencil box in the class.To buy a balloon that was sold for around a rupee those days,i searched the drawers of my dads desk.
Through with that i searched for the older editions of RD at my grandfathers mini library,scanning his half eaten books by the lovely silverfish.Old house of ours where there was a lot of outdated trash dumped in the attic,i searched for stuff that communicated heritage my family had lived through.Ok! by then i had wasted enough time.Actually i had grown up,had to be responsible soon so i just got back searching for the stream of further education.Post admission i searched for friends,love & a way to survive the new land.Holding a musical hobby ,its been long since i've been searching for music-just about anything that i can manage to hear & tentatively like.I've searched for a lot of movies,images,content that is absolutely abstract to exist in the form of text,video,audio,whatever. but i salute the genius of those who exhibit it those ways.
O yes off late I've also searched for a job.
NOW I'LL TELL YOU WHAT I FOUND OUT SEARCHING FOR THESE
when i searched for pencils after college i happened to find out a place where all the leftover stuff of the school students was sent & stuffed.Trust me,I've seen it & it was almost like a place that every small child imagines himself to find.A room behind my Vice principals' office that was always kept locked till the college hours & opened for a short time after college to keep the unclaimed stuff.I managed to grab some things from there out of whom i still have a pencil box full of memories left with me.
Scanning my dads drawer i never found a rupee but yes i did find his picture when he was young.I used to wonder is he the same man,it had a picture of my parents together newly married.i sometimes found some accessories that he must have worn at his time.Those steel belts the Dev Anand,Rajesh Khanna types,his rings.Those rings are exactly the same as to what we use these days to adopt the studdy image.So my dad was a dude too!that is what i found.
At my grandpas place i searched for RD'S .my god readers digest those days was thicker than the academic books we have now.About the few brands that existed those days godrej,bombay dyeing,binny's etc.Ok this was inside RD.outside i found an identity card of my grandfather,it said" KARIMUL RAZA KHAN,MLA-1942".Hey ,he was an MLA OF UNITED STATE"S PROVINCE-1942-INDIA before independence,isn't that great.I found a20 year old Wedding invitation of my aunt.she separated just the next year of her marriage.I realized i found something that can still shake people's mind if i show it to them,thats a treasure.
Education,i found out i was never meant to be an engineer nor a doctor & its good if i search for something else as a profession.So i have come up with this thing,i'll make searching my profession.As of now i search ideas,concepts,try to observe
the normal things that go around me all the time.I had this stupid belief that in order to be success full u gotta be different,but I've learned nothing is different,its all the same happening to so many people at the same time.The difference is that some identify it ,some don't.
Those who do sell what they've identified to those who didn't.Isn't that a good way of making a living.I bet you cannot find a better one,so all those MBA'S,DOCTORS & ENGINEERS i'll give you an instance of your life you just happened to miss & make you pay for that.
But for that i need to search.Search your minds,your styles,your needs & your greeds.I am getting close by .through the kind of music you listen-the lyrical sense of a song conveys what & where you are at places.The books you read-the words in them speak to you sometimes as a story,sometimes as the truth.
Factually or fictionally,what is the way u like ur emotions to be depicted ?
Is it on a piece of paper,film or a song .Decide for urself before i find out ,else u'll find it out in a book or a film that i make if i happen too & believe me U'll have to pay to know that!I mean it but u'll love the depiction.
AFTER SO MUCH OF STUFF THAT I SEARCH & I'VE ALREADY SEARCHED ,
GOOGLE DIDN'T GIVE ME A JOB.
it means a lot left to search as yet!
though i never find them.searching has always been a hobby,not much i remember ,still,as far as i can go back i searched for leftover pencils under the desks after my school bell rang.i really made a huge collection out of them,by far i had the richest pencil box in the class.To buy a balloon that was sold for around a rupee those days,i searched the drawers of my dads desk.
Through with that i searched for the older editions of RD at my grandfathers mini library,scanning his half eaten books by the lovely silverfish.Old house of ours where there was a lot of outdated trash dumped in the attic,i searched for stuff that communicated heritage my family had lived through.Ok! by then i had wasted enough time.Actually i had grown up,had to be responsible soon so i just got back searching for the stream of further education.Post admission i searched for friends,love & a way to survive the new land.Holding a musical hobby ,its been long since i've been searching for music-just about anything that i can manage to hear & tentatively like.I've searched for a lot of movies,images,content that is absolutely abstract to exist in the form of text,video,audio,whatever. but i salute the genius of those who exhibit it those ways.
O yes off late I've also searched for a job.
NOW I'LL TELL YOU WHAT I FOUND OUT SEARCHING FOR THESE
when i searched for pencils after college i happened to find out a place where all the leftover stuff of the school students was sent & stuffed.Trust me,I've seen it & it was almost like a place that every small child imagines himself to find.A room behind my Vice principals' office that was always kept locked till the college hours & opened for a short time after college to keep the unclaimed stuff.I managed to grab some things from there out of whom i still have a pencil box full of memories left with me.
Scanning my dads drawer i never found a rupee but yes i did find his picture when he was young.I used to wonder is he the same man,it had a picture of my parents together newly married.i sometimes found some accessories that he must have worn at his time.Those steel belts the Dev Anand,Rajesh Khanna types,his rings.Those rings are exactly the same as to what we use these days to adopt the studdy image.So my dad was a dude too!that is what i found.
At my grandpas place i searched for RD'S .my god readers digest those days was thicker than the academic books we have now.About the few brands that existed those days godrej,bombay dyeing,binny's etc.Ok this was inside RD.outside i found an identity card of my grandfather,it said" KARIMUL RAZA KHAN,MLA-1942".Hey ,he was an MLA OF UNITED STATE"S PROVINCE-1942-INDIA before independence,isn't that great.I found a20 year old Wedding invitation of my aunt.she separated just the next year of her marriage.I realized i found something that can still shake people's mind if i show it to them,thats a treasure.
Education,i found out i was never meant to be an engineer nor a doctor & its good if i search for something else as a profession.So i have come up with this thing,i'll make searching my profession.As of now i search ideas,concepts,try to observe
the normal things that go around me all the time.I had this stupid belief that in order to be success full u gotta be different,but I've learned nothing is different,its all the same happening to so many people at the same time.The difference is that some identify it ,some don't.
Those who do sell what they've identified to those who didn't.Isn't that a good way of making a living.I bet you cannot find a better one,so all those MBA'S,DOCTORS & ENGINEERS i'll give you an instance of your life you just happened to miss & make you pay for that.
But for that i need to search.Search your minds,your styles,your needs & your greeds.I am getting close by .through the kind of music you listen-the lyrical sense of a song conveys what & where you are at places.The books you read-the words in them speak to you sometimes as a story,sometimes as the truth.
Factually or fictionally,what is the way u like ur emotions to be depicted ?
Is it on a piece of paper,film or a song .Decide for urself before i find out ,else u'll find it out in a book or a film that i make if i happen too & believe me U'll have to pay to know that!I mean it but u'll love the depiction.
AFTER SO MUCH OF STUFF THAT I SEARCH & I'VE ALREADY SEARCHED ,
GOOGLE DIDN'T GIVE ME A JOB.
it means a lot left to search as yet!
Comments
well, shahnawaz...google was not the right place for you. man u ought to write scripts and lyrics. i see u as the next javed akhtar :)
..or even better!
all the best bro :)
well...tum bachpan se hi pen-pencil jama karne k shaukeen ho haan!
cute :)